I feel it coming, trying to make its debut, So I blink and blink trying to hold it back, trying my best to shake it off. But my heart is so heavy, overwhelmed by the circumstances but I do my best not to let it out.
Then it starts again, so I tell myself, it’s going to be ok! Look, there’s a rainbow waiting at the end of this storm. But its not working, I feel… I feel them coming, like a river trap by logs, I hold them in, doing all I can to hold them back.
My faith tells me to be strong. For just like a mother giving birth in pain to her baby, after the pain there is joy… joy is coming, just trust and have faith, I tell myself. I know this and I do have faith but here it comes again because today is like no other day, the sadness is in full gear.
So again I tell myself there’s a rainbow at the end of it all. Don’t you dear cry… you can’t cry, you can’t let the enemy see you down. But then I remember Jesus wept too, and after the tears came joy, a great celebration. Know that rain needs to fall for things to grow.
There is victory and happiness after the tears, so its ok to cry. This thought hit me like a brick, it got to me, so I cried out Lord please help! That’s all it took, no more could I hold them back. Like a waterfall they came out, they came down… The tears, they made their debut… Tears that turned into weeping, weeping that will soon be turned into joy.